Grief

I didn’t see death when I loved you

I didn’t see an end

There was a distant day, so far away

Where you wouldn’t be by my side

A thought I’d shove aside

Too painful to fathom,

For I loved you and still do,

But now I see death when I see love

I see a distant day where I can’t breathe

from uncontrollable tears

Where my head hurts from all the memories 

And my chest sits heavy with sorrow

I fear I will never see love again

Without fearing loss

But maybe I should love anyway

Like I loved you with my whole heart

Because that distant day will always be

Looming ahead anyway

And if I live to see it, 

I hope I’ve loved with all that my heart could hold,

This is all a consolation,

A train of thought to remind myself

That grief is the price we pay for love

And that loving you was the best thing I’ve ever done.

           —Ananya Murali